Does anyone else do this?

My roommate has been trying to impress on me not to play the shoulda, woulda, coulda game. For those of you that dont know what that is basically its I shoulda done this, or I woulda done this, I coulda done this. Basically reflecting on past events that you cant change and nothing you do will change the out come.
Even though I realized how much time I waste playing this game I find myself going back to this game over and over and you know what? That's stressful! I don't need the extra stress or to waste energy playing this game that doesn't even make me happy. I should be spending that energy trying to make a positive impact on my life instead of fretting over the past. Now do I think this mindset will help me completely abandon the game. OF COURSE NOT! Im human and I have a good memory for my mistakes otherwise I wouldn't be able to learn from them but the next time I find myself needless playing the shoulda, woulda, coulda game I am going to ask myself is this helpful and if its not I am going to make a pointed effort to stop.
What about you do you play the game?

New Apartment, New Year!

So today is finally the day, Bennie (my roommate) and I, signed a lease on a two bedroom apartment I am kissing my tiny one bedroom apartment goodbye in favor of a new two bedroom! Bennie will get his own room and I will get an upgraded kitchen! I am so excited to start this new chapter in my life. I know that old mantra "new apartment, new me!" but I am not going to be doing to that I am just going to keep the old me she may have problems and dress like a potato but I like myself all in all BUT I do like the idea of decorating in a different way when moving into a new place I am so excited for all the new furniture and decor I am planning to get over the next year I am thinking light bright and airy. At least in the living room. I want to have plants and books galore to bad I broke my big book shelf oh well. I will post pictures when we start moving in on friday!

I feel bad for my cat.

So its not secret with anyone who has spent time with me that I struggle pretty hard with depression and other metal illness. This makes it hard to keep up with my obligations blogging, school, doctors appointments heck even showering and for the longest time I thought it only affected me. Now I have come to realize it affects those around me to. My messiness affects my roommate who is just trying to help me and the one I feel the most bad about it affecting is my poor cat.
Monster doesnt know why I lay in bed all day, or why I dont play with her anymore or why I dont pet her as much. All she knows is that I dont and that a cry a lot now and just lay in bed. She will bring me her toys and lay next to or on me purring trying to get me to move and on the occasion that I do move she will follow me meowing happily. I feel bad for her because I feel like I am letting her down it takes all my effort to just feed her and clean her litter box and there is no energy left for playing or pets. I have thought of rehoming her but I think I would be so devastated so today I took the time to try and play with her and it felt good and she was really happy. I think I am going to try playing with her more often.

Maja went to the Vet!

So this was the first vet visit since all the puppies have left the nest. I was not there for it but I got a first hand account of what happened. They apparently took her back to draw blood and she had a minor freak out. Just a small note on Maja if she is not with her owner (My roommate) then she is with me she is never alone or with strangers, she is ALWAYS with someone she knows. My roommate apparently warned them that she was strong but they did not take his words to heart and got to find out for themselves how strong she is (just an FYI she is insanely strong). She got four shots and blood drawn and seems to be doing very well after that. No vomiting she is eating well seems a little tired but not overly so, and thoroughly traumatized of the vet wants nothing to do with the vet. So I would say the vet did his job well.
Heres a few pictures of Majas pretty red bandage!

Heres a cute picture of Maja and Monster

Heres a cute picture of Maja look at those pretty brown eyes 

New Years Goals

So I know I am little late to the game but please excuse me for that because I am trying. Depression has been hitting me pretty hard but I seem to be getting better and I am working on this year being a better year!
So on with my goals!

• Reach five followers on the blog! 

This goal seems pretty simple and I wanted to make an easy goal to just have but getting followers for the blog has become rather hard as of late but I will continue to work on it with a fever!

• Get 300 monthly views on the blog! 

Again another simple goal but this one is difficult you have to find just the right tags to get people to come look at your blog. Then you have to keep them coming back!

• Reach 50 subscribers on YouTube.

I bet you didn't know I had a YouTube. Well I do! Currently we have 23 subscribers on YouTube and we are attempting to get 50 subscribers to bolster our ranks. If you want to see cute animal videos, reviews and vlogs, search MonsterMotley on YouTube and look for the cat icon!

• Reach 100 followers on Instagram.

This is another difficult goal for me because while it is the platform I am most active on it is also the one I see the least amount of pay back from but I plan on turning that around this year and with hope my not to evil plans will pay off!  If you want to find my Instagram search MonsterMotleyCrew and it should pop up as Motley with a cute picture of Monster sitting on a blue laptop.

• Do Outfit of the Month with Monster again.

So anyone who know Monster and me have likely heard the story about how when Monster was younger she use to rip out tuffs of her fur from anxiety. At the time I could not afford the medicine to help with that so my vet recommended that I put her in baby clothes ( 0 to 3 months fit a cat) and that evolved into outfit of the month on my Facebook page where every month I would but a new outfit (or several new outfits) for monster to where. Well now I want to do that on my Instagram and I already have six outfits that I have bought to try this. Oh and before anyone says anything the outfit do not hurt her and she doesn't mind them.

• Buy a Condo/Duplex/house 

This has been a long time dream of mine is to own my own property/place to live. I am sick of renting and for as much as I pay in rent I could easily own my own place. I don't mind a fixer upper or even a tiny home I just want to be done with renting and noisy neighbors and the politics of living under someone else's thumb.

• Finish my Degree. 

Another most people know about me is that since I turned 18 I have been going to College off and on. At first I didn't have a GED so I couldn't get financial aid. Now that I have my GED I am still having some trouble getting financial aid so I am still paying for my classes out of pocket and that would be okay if I didn't want to finish this year but gosh darn it I want to finish my degree!

• Monetize my social media.

Now when I am talking about social media I am talking two platforms in particular. Instagram and the blog. Now don't worry I am not going to flood you with ads disguised as a post I will most likely have the ad tucked away to the side or like I am doing now do an ad post ever wednesday or sunday and I will try to make it plain as possible that it is an ad. I will also not advertise a product I don't believe in. Now I cant help what shows up in google ad sense but I will try to filter it as much as possible but if I do an advertised post I will try the product first. I hate to have to Monetize at all but if I am to continue putting out content I need some income. (Outfits and treats for the Monster are not cheap!)

Bye Bye Coco

Sorry I have not posted in a while to be honest getting out of bed was even a challenge one that some days I didnt rise to meet. Coco is gone and with that all the puppies are gone and I am super sad. Now I know for sure I could never be a dog breeder because watching that last puppy go was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Especially knowing if the circumstances had been different she could have been my puppy. I have comfort knowing she went to a really good home where everyone loves her and can keep her for a very long time. It was really hard to see her go even now I am crying thinking about her. When the time is right I will get a dog of my own and I will be happy to have her and take care of her. For now I have Monster and pictures (and of course the terror that is Maja).
Here are some pictures of Coco

As a last minute add on they have renamed Coco to Nala which I absolutely love!

Goodbye Lima Bean!

Lima Bean went to his new home on Sunday before Christmas! He will be living with a single dad and his son. I think they will have a a wonderful life the three of them I dont think the cats of that household are to thrilled though!

While Coco for the time being will continue to stay with us as we look for a home. She is progressing well on her potty training only having one or two accidents a day and her crate training is going as expected with a lot of sleepless nights due to howling. She even made it up the front steps of our apartment all on her own today which is a huge step because before she was terrified of the steps! Now we have to work on getting her to ask us to be taken out when she needs to go but right now I would be happy with getting her to sit!

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas! As we round off the year with our last holiday and my personal favorite I cant help but feel excited for the new year and all it will bring I will be posting on New year with a recap of the year and hopefully what to look forward to in the New year, but look forward to our last post of the year on Thursday it will be an update on puppies so far!

Slight problem...

So I might have Coco bean a bit longer than anticaped because she is proving to be a difficult girl to find a home for! So I started teaching her basic commands sit, lay down and so forth. The thing however that I did not see being a problem that now is, is the fact that Coco bean will not walk on the leash by herself she needs her brother (Lima bean or runt runt) to walk with her otherwise she plops herself down and does not move and inch, and anytime she is forced to move she howls her little heart out. I honestly dont know what I am going to do with Coco when its just the two of us on our walks. How are you suppose to potty train a puppy who wont walk?! If any of you have advice please let me know!
 


and here are the videos for the puppies last vet visit I just uploaded them please excuse the audio it was filmed on a cell phone!

Goodbye Vanilla and Pinto!

So over the weekend to of our puppies went to their furever home. First to go on Saturday was Pinto. His owner came and signed the paper work and got her puppy. This was the owner of the stud that got Maja pregnant so this puppy was going to live with his daddy. I wish them both all the best. Then Vanilla went on Sunday to one of the fellow fighters in mine and my roommates armored wrestling group. She will have a wonderful life in a house full of kids and two other dogs. I think she found the best home possible and will never be lonely. That leaves Coco Bean and Lima Bean. Lima Bean has a few prospects of homes and with Coco Bean the search continues though we have a few people lined up. We are excited for our puppies and their future lives in new homes!

Sleepless Nights.

The puppies went through sleep regression as of recently. They have gone from sleeping through the night and waking up at 5 am to waking up every few hours and barking and howling for thirty minutes to an hour. Its been really hard on us but they get their shots on Friday then they can go home so we are excited for sleep again. We will miss them though this has been a very fun and interesting experience to go through. One of the homes for the puppies back out so now we are rehoming him to a new home and we are excited to interview possible homes.
Video of them howling and barking just a disclaimer we riled them up for this video they are alot noisier at night.
Yes by the way I have a youtube channel here it is have fun with that fact!